Friday, July 9, 2010


Matthew 12:50 NAS
For whoever does the will of My Father who is in heaven, he is My brother and sister and mother.

Our family has never been a close knit group. I am the oldest with three sisters and two brothers. I married at sixteen and moved away so that in its self meant breaking away from family gatherings. On top of that, my mother divorced, and moved taking my brothers and sisters even farther away from where they were living.

Throughout the years I've tried to keep in touch, but with my growing family, and every day life that was hard to do. It was years before I started going home for visits, but even then, it was hard to get everyone together. Mom was always delighted when we were all home enjoying each other's company.

Then about fifteen years ago we had a family reunion, which didn't turn out very well. Since I was the oldest they all looked to me to plan everything, which I must say, I did not do a very good job of. Everyone went their own way. Our last night together was good, but at times, was strained. I probably had a hand in that myself. I am more to blame because I know better.

My brother behind me and I are the closest and when I told him it would be a very long time before I got together with my sisters again. He was the sensible one and said. "You shouldn't feel that way. You never know."

Since then my little brother has passed away and now his wife has been sent home with pancreatic cancer. They said there was nothing more they can do for her.

I've done a lot of thinking since I found out her time on earth has been shortened. We do not know when our Father will call us to our eternal home. Our earthly home is only temporary.

My heart has softened I guess because I know I need to mend fences with my sisters when I go home. I know that is what God wants me to do, but it's only with His love and guidance that I will be able to do it.

Dear Father I pray for your guidance with my sisters, to forget all hurts and frivolous things that have happened. I pray these things in Jesus Name. Amen.

1 comment:

  1. My Dear sister, I felt so much hurt inside me, with the passing of our mother, because I felt that my sister and brothers, blamed me for it, then that hurt turned to anger. I kept asking myself why? why, did they hate me so much, because, I did all I could do, to make her as comfortable as possible while she was with me,I felt as though I had lost my sister, and brothers forever, then the anger, turned to sadness in my heart, I felt even with the passing of our brother, the coldness from you and brother, in-which my heart even became heavier with hurt and anger once again. Then it melted back into great sadness. Now with the passing of our sister, I prayed to the Mother, Father and Son to please take away these feelings I felt inside for so long, To let me feel joy and happness inside in seeing you and brother and the rest of the family, but, when I saw you alone and you huged me I knew that my prayer was answered, I felt such great joy and happness inside once again for my sister. I thanked the Mother, Father and my Jesus for taking away the pain. little sister